i really do not have the energy to care anymore. and this is liberating.
stayed up till 3am last night with a friend, who answered my doubts on religion and what i'm going through now, and maybe you don't know, but your presence was timely. maybe this is what you meant by God sending people to save you. thank you for being the friend i needed, and for letting me look beyond the surface of you, and get to know you better than i ever had.
also stayed up till 3 typing a long email, and each word i typed gave me more clarity and took away the haze in my mind. i'm done playing your game, acting like a snake coming out from the bag each time the music plays. i've done all i can, it's your turn. i'm done fighting.
okay, it's time to study.
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thank you to everyone who had in one way or another, encouraged me and cheered me up. every one of you matter to me, and it's a really nice feeling knowing you're never alone.
